what is love?
why why why? why am i continually falling in love and never outta it? why am i always concurrently in love with 'N' people at the same time? its probably coz i dont know the meaning of love (or fidelity??). i am not the kinda girl to roam about with my heart on my sleeve but it just happens that i meet such special people....
right now my heart belongs to this one guy who seems to care SO much for my needs....he brought me dinner when i was sick. then there's this one guy i work with....*sigh* our conversations are amazing! and then there's this stuck up ass! he's probably the most conceited person i know....but yeah, he gives me butterflies in my stomach and sleepless nights! man! i must be a bad person....coz then comes my boyfriend. dont i sound like a terrible person? is it natural to be smitten with so many people at the same time? but mind you...i'm not having relationships (read flings) all over the place. my loyalties are intact. but everyone compliments my life in such different ways...i cant help thinking 'what if....'.
i wonder when i will meet the person i am meant to be with the rest of my life. i want to be in a beautiful relationship. one filled with love and laughter....i am a person who needs a lot of love. but yes, i also need my space and time....which is why i generally run away from people who intrude in on my space.
i dont know what love is. actually, i kinda do. the one true relationship i had in my life left me bitter. i could never get him outta my system. but like all the other guys....he was totally wrong for me.
i think i should stop listening to the songs i generally listen to....honestly, i get really flowery and happy thoughts when i listen to them. and then i am left with a feeling of loneliness and sadness. what should i do? shall i continue to be in love in spurts of the moment? i guess so....coz that way atleast i can feel beautiful and hopeful....and who knows....maybe one day my heart leads me to the path that takes me to my knight in shining armour! (i wont say prince charming....i prefer knights!!)
*sigh*.....
right now my heart belongs to this one guy who seems to care SO much for my needs....he brought me dinner when i was sick. then there's this one guy i work with....*sigh* our conversations are amazing! and then there's this stuck up ass! he's probably the most conceited person i know....but yeah, he gives me butterflies in my stomach and sleepless nights! man! i must be a bad person....coz then comes my boyfriend. dont i sound like a terrible person? is it natural to be smitten with so many people at the same time? but mind you...i'm not having relationships (read flings) all over the place. my loyalties are intact. but everyone compliments my life in such different ways...i cant help thinking 'what if....'.
i wonder when i will meet the person i am meant to be with the rest of my life. i want to be in a beautiful relationship. one filled with love and laughter....i am a person who needs a lot of love. but yes, i also need my space and time....which is why i generally run away from people who intrude in on my space.
i dont know what love is. actually, i kinda do. the one true relationship i had in my life left me bitter. i could never get him outta my system. but like all the other guys....he was totally wrong for me.
i think i should stop listening to the songs i generally listen to....honestly, i get really flowery and happy thoughts when i listen to them. and then i am left with a feeling of loneliness and sadness. what should i do? shall i continue to be in love in spurts of the moment? i guess so....coz that way atleast i can feel beautiful and hopeful....and who knows....maybe one day my heart leads me to the path that takes me to my knight in shining armour! (i wont say prince charming....i prefer knights!!)
*sigh*.....
posted by Freeway Hippie at 10/06/2005 08:56:00 PM
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