Happy 2006!

Good morning readers! There’s nothing particularly good about this morning and its not really morning anyway but I don’t think this should bother anyone. And if it does…do contact some shrink before you become a full-fledged obsessive-compulsive freak of some kind. OCD isn’t that uncommon these days. And yeah, “perfectionist” is just a fancy derivative of OCD.
So, next year is almost here. I have kinda lost track of the years and I know that its just gonna be another day for me. I can understand why people get all excited about the New Year and what they call “fresh starts” but I cant help finding it rather superficial and naïve. Isn’t it all just too psychological? But hey, if it works for people…I’m not gonna challenge it. But this is my space…for my thoughts…a place where I use my right for free speech. So, BITE me!
Anyway, the best thing about the New Year is the New Year’s Eve…the perfect time for retrospection and introspection. The fool proof method to evaluate how much farther we have gotten in life, how much we have gained, how much of our goals we have achieved, how progressive we have been etc etc.
Its probably a little premature for me to talk about the New Years on 27^th December but I just might not get the time on December 31^st so I’m getting my thoughts down right now. And in case I DO get some time on December 31^st you just might get to read a few more New Year related ramblings.
So, back to where I left off. New Year is just the right time for self-evaluation. Last year this time I was alone, in a new city, in a new country, living a new life. I didn’t know my way around the city so it was hard for me to go to places where I could stop thinking about my solitude. The sight of families together made me gloomy…but I was always strong and I was always appreciative of the fact that I was finally at a stage in life when I could start working on what I want to be. I was at the juncture when I knew what I wanted and had all the services to make my dream a reality. And today, I am living that dream…my dream…my reality. The past year has transformed me from a novice to what feels like a veteran. I have gained so much…and am thankful for that. Thankful to the people who have stood by me…my family and friends, the opportunities that have given themselves to me, my karma and all the other things I believe in. I have lost a lot as well…but that does not disturb me. The very fact that I can live without something means that I didn’t need it all that much anyway. And only when we lose substance can we have enough room to gain substance that’s more important to us.

*writers block*