Cuss! Crap! Damn!

Crap! Crap, Crap, Crap! I could say that a zillion times and then wanna say just one more thing...CRAP! No, I am not upset about anything...in fact, if anything, I have been taking everything real easy, getting into the holiday spirit, stopping and smelling the flowers, kicking it up, shopping like mad....and basically doing anything and everything that counts towards having a good time. But CRAP! I figured that I am so used to cussing that my day seems incomplete without it! CRAP!
I'm leaving for NY on the 15th....and the incident at the Chicago airport wasn't exactly something I needed...considering the fact that I have to change flights in Chicago. And I'm kinda dreading the visit to NY. I would normally admit to just one reason for that....which is the freezing weather in NY....but to be honest, I am also a little nervous about meeting him. Actually, I'm nervous about my Mum meeting him. Crap! I hope it all works out well. Damn! I feel like that vehicle that’s half hanging off the hill...with a tiny pebble for a fulcrum...damn! gotta watch how every damn person in the vehicle treads!! Damn! And I gotta save everyone’s when my own butt is freezing off! Wonderful innit? The role of a woman as the thread binding together the emotional fiber of our small circle in particular and society in general. I have single word response for this statement....but I'll refrain from saying anything. If things don’t work out the way I want them to....rest assured....this is where I'm gonna spit out all my venom!
I seem to be living up to my bitterness these days. Hmmmm.....No comments! I just have too much to do, too little time, yadda yadda yadda....you've heard this before!