huh?

i cant believe that its been 3 days since i blogged. and what i cant believe about that is that i didnt realize that it had been 3 days! honestly speaking....when i look back at the past week (specially wednesday night onwards)....all i see is a void of time. i dont know what to make of it. take this morning for example...i went to the lab at around 1030, worked there till around 3, got home, cooked lunch, ate lunch, went to the library to study, studied there till about 630, got myself a pumpkin spice latte, got home, cooked dinner, ate dinner, slept for 3 hours, and here i am...taking a break from my studies and blogging. what strikes me the most is that although i have no recollection of being aware of the fact of walking to the library or studying there....i DO remember what i studied and the concepts i understood. the same thing goes for everything else that happened today....i have a faint recollection of meeting people and having coffee etc....but its a very latent thought. i feel like a zombie! the AWARENESS seems to be missing. what does this mean? is it bad? i mean, of course its bad.....but....if it means that i can be more focussed about my career....i'm fine with it. nevertheless, because its important for me to understand my thoughts and actions...it is important for me to figure this out. another example coz its at hand....i just had a bag of chips without realizing it!
but this is not the normal me. i am basically a VERY aware person....aware of my surroundings, my thoughts, my feelings, my reasons for doing stuff.....everything. so much so....i also like to know why people do stuff! (which kinda freaks them out sometimes....like the time i stared at this guy while asking him why he likes chopped fruit peices better than whole ones! but i really wanted to know....i like to know what people think and why they do stuff. i respect people who know what they are doing and the reasons why they are doing it!)
anyway, seems like i have written an entire blog entry sub consciously.....maybe when i wake up and read this tomorrow morning i'll realize something. my explanation for whats happening is 1 word....PREOCCUPATION! yeah, there is a whole lotta stuff doing rounds in my head. but that doesnt justify this...no matter how convincing it might sound. so, what i have decided is that i am gonna start my day with a really really really stiff cup of coffee tomorrow....lets see how it goes!
Peace!
Da Bitter Genius.