what am i doing?

Here I am...at one of those stages again...or shall I call it a constraint defined, zig-zagged, criss-crossed, "guess the pattern" type intersection (of life)?
I'll blog about this in a few days...hopefully things should become crystal clear by Saturday...its my hope that they shall be crystal clear but any magnitude of clarity other than that will be more than welcome.
I hate life changing choices...specially when they make their entry at times like these...when I couldn't be more unprepared even if I tried!! Thankfully, I have not made very many wrong decisions in life...I think THAT'S what's causing me to freak out! The thought of messing up...of making that ONE stupid mistake that will make my life hell! On one side is my head...which is telling me to do a very logical and reasonable thing. And on the other side is my soul...which wants me to do the thing that will make me happy! Most of the times, I listen to my head...in fact...I ALMOST ALWAYS listen to my head...But I had made a promise to myself at one point of time in my life (not so long ago). And that promise was...."There is ONE life altering decision that I will surely make with my heart...". As luck would have it...its time to make that decision. And as luck would definitely have it....I'm unprepared. But Saturday should consolidate some ideas...and raze down the others. And come Sunday...and I shall blog about the scandalous idea doing rounds in my head.