Sentimental Sunday...

Okay. So I am a little sentimental today. Hmmm? You think that’s funny? Wait till you read what I have to write. Hah! So, its been about a month since I had someone I trusted deeply just rip my heart to shreds and shatter my dreams. I can talk about it now coz I don’t feel sad and vulnerable as it did when it happened to me. Now all that is left is the comedy associated with heartbreaks. And I can laugh at it…with a slight pang in my heart…which kinda adds to the humor…or lessens the pain. Think of it how you like to! I’ll settle with the former. What happened was that yours truly asked her couldn’t-get-outta-her-system ex boyfriend if he wanted to get back together. With a start as horrendously incapable of holding any water, there was only one way to go! DOWN! But the advantage of being down in the dumps with scum and garbage is that things can only get better. Right? Wrong! Luckily for me, other aspects of my life didn’t come tumbling down all together. Rather, they came down on me at a rate at which I could keep getting them back up and be ready to out ‘em back up again when they came down next!
So anyway, what he tells me is that he needs to “think about it” and until he thought about it the “nature of the relationship we shared depended entirely on me”. What a load of bullshit! And when I expressed this very thought…some crappy allegations were thrown in.
It was good in a way…but it felt SO bad at the time. The reason why I say that it was good is coz it helped me to get over that ass so much faster. Well, he’s not really an ass…but he acted like one that day. “The nature of ….blah blah blah.” GEEZ! Gimme a freakin break! Who talks like that??
Having said that…I still remember the rainbows and butterflies. I don’t miss ‘em…but I do think of ‘em sometimes. And that’s what makes me a wee bit sentimental. And that makes me re-wonder how he could be so damn unbelievably stupid. Taking people for granted is wrong. And even if you do take people for granted…there should be a limit to that. He just went head first over, above and beyond that limit.
Oh well, I should hit the books now. Its gonna be a long week….presentations, submissions, projects and then the finals. Damn! And yeah, I shouldn’t cuss so darn much! Damnit! I mean, Oops!