Confusion strikes again!

I feel weird. Very weird. Lack of comprehension is infuriating. Especially when the situation/topic is extremely personal. I DO wanna understand what is happening, but I am limited by my awareness which is defined by my experiences and restricted by my vocabulary. Yeah, that came out right. Coming back to the subject here...I guess it happens to every one every once in a while...and I happen to be at a time and place in my life where I have been bitten by the same bug. I find it hard to comprehend my feelings and since I don’t want to call them by a name that just about resembles what they are...I find myself falling silent. And silence is a torture when there is actually a storm brewing in ones mind. Forced silence is almost as bad as saying something just for the heck of it. And ironically, these are the only 2 options I have as of now. Of course, there is also the option of coming out in the open about my dilemma...but I have always been the kinda person who reflects rather than one looks out for meaning and/or purpose.

Heavy!