turning someone down??

oh yeah!! how on earth could i not have blogged about this! you know....i've experimented with (and followed) a zillion methods of turning people down....and i have come to a conclusion....there is NO right way of turning down a person....or alteast....i havent found one yet! there have been times when i have turned down someone sweetly and they just kept coming back like spare change! and the times i was stern....they ended up mouthing cliche's like "i'm too good for you anyway" or "you'll live to regret not giving us a chance" or other stuff like that. and then.....and then there was this one guy who just went ballistic on me!!! he stalked me for a few days as well...harassing me with a zillion phone calls a day!! sheesh!! and the final showdown was when he called me a "player" and ended up leaving town all together. come awn!!! i often wonder what i would have done if someone turned me down. well...i guess i would just walk away! thats it! no strings attached! but anyway, coming back to the topic....such crazy experiences have made me a little bottled up as far as getting to know people more deeply is concerned. if i get a whiff that the person is interested me....you can spot me as the person running in the opposite direction! once bitten twice shy...thats how it goes....but i have been bitten quite a few times. so, is it really my fault if people say i am commitment phobic? well....yeah....i guess it is my fault...i can handle things better....but the fact of the matter is that i dont know HOW!!! mind you....i'm talking only in terms of other people. my boyfriend seems to be pretty happy in our relationship so that kinda liberates me on some mental level.
i fear getting close to guys now. apart from my few good college friends....who are 'just' friends i steer clear of all people who give me 'interest' vibes! of course, this has its own downsides but atleast it puts me at peace with myself.
i often wonder....do i mislead people....is that why they get interested in me in a way other than just friendship? or is this just the way things happen. they say that we cant chose who we fall in love with....so probably i'm just basically a very lovable person! LOL....and on that gem of a note....i shall sign off today!!!