quit being a tramp!

Its strange and funny at the same time. I feel guilty for something that shouldn’t even concern me. I can justify to myself that its an uncalled for thought…but the heart is hard to reason with. And I know that its pretty darn stupid…by feeling a sense of guilt I am allowing myself to go through something I am not entitled to experience anyway.
I’m not gonna spill out the beans…but its about a guy. He and I occasionally spend some time together…but today I experienced the weirdest pang of discomfort while I talked with him. I felt like I was letting him down…being an unfaithful friend by harboring emotions towards him. He probably doesn’t…he definitely doesn’t consider me anything more than a friend…he’s married…so I cant help feeling like a bad person. Not that feeling like a bad person bothers me…it’s the thought of fooling someone I like that does.
When I thought about it….I put myself in his position. How would I like it if a friend of mine spent time with an ulterior motive of having a “friend with benefits”?
I know I am doing something wrong. Play any way you want…except with people’s feelings and trust…even if those people are your enemies. that’s the philosophy I believe in.
Moreover, I should quit being such a vagabond.