Life does have its strange ways.

I am not a believer in destiny, but I find it hard to explain situations where stuff happens without any direct involvement from my side. Like situations where people mess up and I have to either bear the brunt or live with the new circumstances. I am not emphasizing on any kinda victimization here…that’s something I don’t believe in either. Belief in the theory of “victim of circumstances” is a necessary and sufficient condition for belief in destiny. The opposite may/may not be true. I don’t know.
So, what happened yesterday?
Yesterday was the day I was deceived by a person whom I had no trust in anyway. (Yes, that can happen.) I don’t trust people easy, but I don’t let my distrust to penetrate into my equation with a person. Rudely put, you can think of all my relationships with people as one sided…and that side is theirs. So I found out something about this one guy (lets call him MF…just to add a dash of humor!), which I was prepared for, but by no means expecting.
Just like the proverbial cookie, all relationships crumble. In this case, however, I did not see it coming so soon. It was not painful nor numbing…it was just something that happened along with things like studying at the library, grocery shopping, watching TV and all that other stuff I do on a daily basis.
Deception angers me. And my anger rarely ever surfaces. This should mean that I am frustrated…I don’t really feel frustrated…I’m just a little cloudy about what I’m feeling. Its silent, nagging, fuzzy, arbitrary, un-manifested…yeah…I’m irritated. That’s what I am. Irritated. Hmmm…I’m smiling at my discovery. Writing always does it for me! Good! I feel so much better now!
Wow! Now all this reflection calls for a movie and popcorn!
Later!