doing and being...

Okay, today I am a misanthrope. But my rage is directed towards society and not human kind. I don’t know if there’s a different term I should be using…my knowledge of psychology/sociology/whatever-ology is restricted. There is a behavior code that is expected and accepted by the society. And that is fine. I am totally convinced with the fact that there should be a defined convention of conduct that steers each equation. But, then there are things, which the society expects you to BE. That annoys me. ‘Doing’ and ‘Being’ are poles apart. And what makes it even worse is people who belong to this sect of patronizing nincompoops! My personal way of dealing with these people is scandalizing them by showing my defiance. But then I am almost always misunderstood as a rebel. I am not a rebel. In fact, I am a very contained person…concerned only with what I am doing (keeping in mind that no one around me is inconvenienced!). There’s a word for it in the “Negative Thesaurus”... which is something a lot of people I know seem to have…I believe its listed with selfish, self centered, egocentric, egoistic, egoistical, egomaniacal, egotistic, egotistical, greedy, hog, mean, mercenary, miserly, narcissistic, narrow, narrow-minded, parsimonious, prejudiced, self-centered, self-indulgent, self-interested, self-seeking, stingy, ungenerous. Whew! I hate to bust a bubble here…but I am neither of those. Why? For the simple reason that I don’t have an evil streak in me. I’m more of the “live and let live” kinds. I cant be someone I am not just coz it makes the people around me happy. No. That’s not happenin! Yes, there ARE times when I try to convince people and try to show them a different angle to something…but I never sulk just coz they don’t see my point. I never have a problem when people disagree with me. In fact, it’s quite the contrary…I welcome discussions. And people? Well, they just wanna walk away saying “I don’t wanna argue!”. BITE ME! Okay, so that was the general overview. Now for what happened today…I happened to discuss my relationship issues with a friend today and apparently she was under the false impression that she was Aphrodite (the Greek goddess of love). And when she started her sermon…all I wanted was for myself to go back in time and NEVER ask her something that even remotely resembled this topic. According to her, I ought to modify my behavior and put on an act (if you will) in order to push all the right buttons! And this is just ONE situation! I’ve been here countless times, each time for a different reason. Why are people so condescending? Can’t they give advice like NORMAL people? Why must they rub it in and give suggestions as though they are shrinks? And if this IS normal…I should perhaps actually go to a shrink…coz that way…at least I’ll EXPECT what’s coming! There you go, that was the vicious cycle of the day!